The newest event in my life was the opportunity to be interviewed on Studio 4 with Fanny Kiefer. The comments I have received on this interview have been generous and warm - a great relief to me. I almost couldn't watch it myself, but when I did I was surprised how relaxed I looked. It was anything but the truth. Here it is - raw and true - how I really felt.
The night before, my biggest fear was I would be restless all night and then oversleep. Next came performance anxiety. I usually do the interviews, so being on the other side of the camera was intimidating. My mind races and I've been known to babble and say the wrong thing when my head gets ahead of my mouth. There is also no fine-tuning on a live broadcast. Whatever you say is out there for everyone to hear and if you say it wrong, you can't take it back. When I write, the article is fine-tuned along with the person interviewed to make sure what is written accurately portrays them. No such option here.
I didn't get a lot of sleep (okay - this is pretty much my normal state), but popped awake at 5 a.m. worried I would be late. By 7 a.m. I was up and about, but stressed to the max and not feeling great (see blog on stress - Talking to Ralph on the Big White Telephone). As I drove down town feeling raw and unconfident, part of me was wishing I could cancel and part was wishing I could just calm down and do the job right. When I arrived, everyone was amazingly supportive and encouraging. Someone even gave me peppermint tea to sooth me, BUT as I was last on the agenda, I was last into make-up. That means they had to check to see if I was going to be ready in time. Breathe in, breathe out.
My time to line up on set had arrived and I love the woman (can't remember her name or title), who came and calmly told me what to expect. "Just look at Fanny and talk to her as if no one else is around." While I was still nervous, I knew I could do that. I love talking one-on-one with people, I just usually ask the questions. Fanny Kiefer was also a total professional. She stopped by to say hi to me before going on set which opened the door to me feeling like we knew each other. My time had come. I sat down in the chair across from her, not knowing what from the large information I sent the producer she would pick from, to see an additional list she had compiled, some of which I didn't have an answer for. Breathe in, breathe out.
The segment began. I did not quite say exactly what I meant to say in a few instances, but I did manage to convey the things that were important to me and Fanny listened. I love to interview. I feel privileged to meet the people I do. I have great respect for our talent here. We have many people who contribute who make the magazine what it is. It is about Vancouver. So in the end, despite the places I wish I had shared something different or things I wanted to say but didn't have time to get in, I am happy with it over all. I also can't say enough about the wonderful staff on set. They were friendly, warm and amazing over all. They did everything they could to make sure I was as comfortable as I could be and praised me afterwards. What more could you ask?
To view this interview on You Tube, please go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzjZj4ctwQA&feature=player_profilepage.
Also realized I hadn't thanked the person who helped me make the right contacts to get my foot in the door - Vancouver's amazing Viktoria Langton, choreographer extraordinaire. I will forever be grateful.
Article on Viktoria in Vancouver Fashion eZine - http://vancouverfashionezine.com/magazineissue16/fashionpro.html
Viktoria's Website - http://viktorialangton.com/