Yesterday it was time for my next mammogram. After my last one I received a call-back. The hospital had just converted all the old film into digital by scanning them in, so the call back rate was around 30% - pretty high. Everyone assured me it was nothing, but in the end I had to have a second set of special ones done as they found what they think is a small calcium deposit. Another new thing to keep in eye on obviously.
The tears turned to a serious case of bitchy and grumpy. Instead of knocking myself for not looking at the positive, without apology I took a day and allowed the feelings to wash through while trying not to take it out on any family members. There is something to be said for not berating yourself when you're feeling down or grumpy or angry or sad or bitchy. I didn't want to hold onto these feelings or wallow in self pity - I just wanted it to allow this truth to express itself and then encourage it to move on. My dark moods just seem to pass quicker this way.