Having faced some other dark times, and also being somebody who meditates, I knew that in this space, I could also make choices about who I wanted to be as I healed. I decided I wouldn’t fake anything and be open to what brought me any sense of joy. I knew one thing and that was I needed be able to make music. Everything else was empty.
The first thing that brought me a sense of any smile was my daughter running towards me when I was picking her up at school 3 days later. While I knew as a mother, my children were my my purpose, it was also important to absolutely trust my spirit to guide me through this difficult time. That’s the moment I decided that if a choice or opportunity wasn’t about those two things - music, my children and therefore my family - it wasn’t worth my energy or my worry.
Every step in our lives, every struggle, is an opportunity to love ourselves a little more and listen to what it is that might truly bring us enough joy to Go On.