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Poor Decisions. Failure. Errors. Hurtful mistakes made while emotional. All of these fall under the category of regrets that haunt us in the middle of the night. You know what I am talking about. Why is it when we often find ourselves awake in the wee hours unable to sleep, memories that bring the burden of guilt and condemnation seem to arise?
Sometimes these memories even bubble up during my waking hours. I was so relieved when I read one of Jan Arden's books and she talked about this happening to her too. She would be out walking, or having a cuppa, and wham, unwanted, difficult memories would erupt from where they had been hidden away. I do my best to let the past I cannot change go and focus on the present, but it seems impossible to totally obliterate the past go or the feelings memories of our mistakes can bring.
"So often we drift through life bound by the poor decisions we've made in the past, too afraid of the uncertainty that comes with challenging our status quo." - Simu Liu, We Were Dreamers
The hardest for me to bear is when I mess up in my treatment of someone. I might have had little sleep, or a bad day, or taken a hit personally in my work or private life. I might have totally misunderstood someone's actions or been misled by another. However it comes about, it never feels good to know you are in the wrong and that your actions hurt someone you care for.